Parenting isn’t Easy at All.
It’s 9:30pm.
You’re washing your face and trying to keep your eyes open. The day is done, until the baby wakes for his 1am feeding, you can’t help but feel run down. Your hair is a mess, there are several unexplainable stains on your shirt. The bags under your eyes have replaced the ones that used to be in your closet. You can’t help but wonder where you have gone. The girl who was spontaneous, carefree and well put together.
You run a warm bath hoping to get a few moments to yourself. You head downstairs to pour a glass of wine and grab a book that you bought last year and still haven’t opened. Before you head back upstairs hubby asks if his jeans are clean for tomorrow. You shrug and head back down to the laundry, you knew you forgot something.
But don’t you always?
The clothes are sitting sopping wet in the washer. You give them a quick sniff and throw them in the dryer with a few extra dryer sheets. You take a deep breath and head back upstairs and fall onto the couch. You hit the cushions and feel your eyes starting to close. Suddenly you remember the bath water is running. You get to the bathroom just in time to see the water pour over onto the floor.
Perfect.
Another mess to clean. Your relaxing bath turned into yet another chore. You soak up the water and then sink into the tub. You take a sip of your wine, and slowly lower your head under the water.
“Mommy, mommy”
Did you just hear someone calling you? No, the children are asleep.
“Mommy, mommy”
There it is again, your oldest is awake. Great!
You pull yourself out of the water and open the door.
“Mommy” he says with a smile on his face. And then wraps his arms around you. “I love you”
You breath. The frown on your face turns into a smile. Your short lived bath, and tired eyes are no longer on your mind.
This is what makes you realize that none of that matters. True love, the perfect ending to your night. Those tiny arms around your waist.
“I love you too little man, I love you too”
Parenting isn’t easy, but it’s the little moments that make you realize it’s all worth it.